I am so sorry to hear about what you have gone through. You didn't deserve that. You deserve to be loved and provided for. You are so valuable, so loved, so worth taking care of. There is a father who will love you, who will exchange your pain for healing and your sadness for joy. God is the ultimate father. Open your heart to His love. You can say something like, "God, my own father has failed me. I need you to father me. I open my heart to you--please show me your love for me." If you don't believe in Him, just say it! "I don't know if you're real, but if you are, please come and show me your love." He won't mind. You are His precious treasure.
Our fathers were meant to show us His love but many are too broken themselves. His arms are open to you and He is ready to love you and heal your broken heart.
You're welcome to contact me. I also recommend the book "Experiencing Father's Embrace".